if i could

erase the pain, maybe you'd feel the same?
just found a dead good artist!

ah need to do my rs project and biology for tomorrow
don't think it's going to happen to be honest
the paper is just sat there looking at me
my room is a tip and i need to be tidying that
so much to do so little time

tried tennis and high jump for the first time in ages today!
in high jump the main reason for failure is lack of confidence
i was good at getting over them until i knocked it off
from then on it all went a bit downhill
couldn't do it again
apparently i need to do it for school sports day next tuesday
god help me!
die die die

i love the sound of rain
so calming
pitter patter on my window

i don't think i feel the same way

i'm going to go on account of i need to do this pissing work and the laptop is burning a hole in my leg



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'you're

not allowed to touch the queen but i always lick the back of her head when it comes to stamps'
have i got news for you is fabulous

pierce brosnan was a looker in his day!





yes i have been watching tv all night


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my ankles

look like the guy's in house of wax
when they get all chopped up
stupid converse
just had a bath and it hurt so much getting in but then i shaved over the cut and when i got out
fuck me, agony!

my hair has grown loads
no split ends for once :D
getting my fringe trimmed this afternoon
i hate going into toni and guy because i always think people are judging you
thinking something like 'oh my god, what shit hair' etc

yesterday my niece and nephew came to the office
and my niece, katie, who's just 3 was crying and look a bit miserable
she'd had a fall out with her boyfriend
it was really cute
so anyway i asked her if she had a nice day at school and carry on
then tested her to see if she could count to five
and then i asked if her boyfriend was nice
and she said no he's naughty and started crying
i was like awrrr!
which concludes my theory that girls go for naughty boys and put up with it even at age 3
apparently what had happened was he hit her with a bag by accident so she hit him
and then he asked her for a kiss and she smacked him in the face with her bag
so they had to be pulled apart because they were scrapping
you go girl!

anyway i need to get ready
mwah



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all i

wanna do is ride bikes with you and stay up late and watch cartoons

my eye hurts
my mum says when it hurts in this manner i probably am lacking in sleep energy
but holly thinks i've had a cock in it
i think it was the first suggestion to be honest

just learnt don't cry out on the guitar
sounds dead sweet if i put the capo on the 4th fret
like a ukelele
but not
i really want a 6 string ukelele
i wonder if it's the same as playing a guitar
but with that stereotypical hawaiian edge

apparently i'm going to be raped to the muffles of dido
..brilliant

i've started moving things in the attic and it looks pretty good so far!
just can't be bothered carting anymore stuff up
so i've set up camp in my bed
first sleep in the new bed tonight
i can wake up and see the sky in the morning
i have to get up really early tomorrow for work so it'll probably still be dark
it's nearly summer though so you never know
may catch the sunrise
that'd be good
i much prefer sunrise to sunset
dead peaceful with no-one to ruin it because the majority of this lazy country will still be in zzz land


i think this is really cute :)
anyway..

back to school in 2 days
still got loads of work and i have no idea when i'm going to fit it in because i haven't much time left when i'm not at work
bummer
i reckon a few late nights will do it
i always do this and leave everything to last minute
why do i never learn!



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i just

plurked jordan
hahahaha

today was nice
went to the park to watch my mums boyfriends daughter racing
bumped into a couple of friends and ended up just eating crappy cheeseburgers and sunbathing
i made a dead good daisy chain bracelet to wish jack good look in his race
and i'm sure he purposely broke it
i think it looked quite pretty
he won anyway down to lucky underwear.. apparently

picnic tomorrow!
wondering whether to take my guitar but i think it might get in the way
i want to take a bat and ball but i can't find one so may have to try pasty bag volleyball again
will have to go on a hunt for one

mum's just got back

i've found a really nice fred perry shirt
but i like the majority of fred perry stuff
things are too expensive nowadays!


i will leave you with a picture of a possum



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!

just seen a shooting star when looking out from the attic window
made a wish
but i can't tell you or else it'd spoil it :)
it's amazing what you see from a window
saw some old woman faffing with some blinds, not being able to get them just right so trying for about 3 minutes

home alone
oh noes!
mum has abandoned me with my high heels and bag
i love how we borrow each others stuff haha
she was meant to be going to this woman's birthday party
but it had to be cancelled because the woman, nina, which i think is a brilliant name fell down the stairs and her two front teeth went through her bottom lip and the others went into her gums
sounds so horrible!
i hate it when teeth hurt and i hate bad teeth
yet i think i want to be a dentist
i'm not bothered that there'll be blood i just hate fleshy blood
like organs
i'd be scared of killing someone if i was a doctor
not on purpose obviously but just if something went wrong
guilt is not a nice thing

today i did nothing really
just sat in the attic allll day and attempted homework
done about 10% of what needs doing
took me awhile to find the percent sign then
oooops

i have a proper job finally on weekends
money coming in, yay!
doing monday and tuesday then weekends from then on hopefully
again i an office but beggars can't be choosers i suppose
i'm pretty good at office stuff but it does get awfully repetitive!

i'm going to go run a bath now i think and have a piece of cake left over from my birthday
what diet?
hahaha oh dear



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i hope

things went well
i suppose
oh i don't know

well birthday has been and gone and it was brilliant!
sarah's mum came to the door and i looked like a rape victim when i trotted down
always a good look
should have some pictures up tomorrow night when i get my camera lead
took lots and lots
came up with so many inventions between us all
one day i'll go on dragons den with them

i'm going to write more tomorrow when it's not nearly 3am



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ah

bon iver is so good

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but now

i don't want anyone else
and it kills me
you kill me but you don't know
and baby i'm not telling nobody

written a bit of a song today

huff puff puff huff!
i am so so so cold
might get an early night tonight so i don't look shit for this pre-birthday dinner tomorrow

today was nice
plomped down to the skate park and played cheese and onion pasty bag volleyball over a bench
we would be pro if it were an actual sport!
olympics 2012
missed the bus TWICE
yet again buses you are not in my favour
sat for an hour at the bus stop and this really sweet old couple sat next to me
speak speak speaking and offering me chocolate
i politely said i didn't want any so my piece got fed to the pigeons
this is the cause of pigeon obesity in the 21st century
mischievous oaps
i read they've started exploding due to picking up fatty foods which peope have littered and their stomachs can't handle it
it's hilarious but is not a laughing matter
anyway
they asked where i came from and the old woman kept falling off the metal bar sitting bit and blamed it on the velvet pants everytime
i think she was just too big for it really

why is nothing good on the tv!
well on this channel
i've lost the remote so i can't change over
oh noes

can't believe i didn't take more pictures today
new camera soon
still not sure whether to bung the tamron lense in there
or save 130 quid
what a decision to make!
probably leave it out
depends

my bed came today
need to put it up tomorrow
diy
joy to the world, i am shit .. at diy
if you hummed that like i just did (the tune) the end bit doesn't fit
but i'll make it

golf
the most exciting sport ever
i can't believe it's even a sport to be honest
whoever came up with the idea must have been some right boring man..or woman
not like the inventer of say rounders
that's got a bit of tension and build ups in it!

were they called ms/miss/mrs/mizz/mr/dr golf?



sarah with a cheeky cornish pasty
hahaha




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'you're the only person

i can speak to and you're looking at me as if i were a child! you stupid stupid man! .. was that me? oh god'
sarah's exam piece
i know it off by heart now too
it's her aptitude, i feel like weeping whenever she performs this

i'm falling for you
it's crazy, man
just
oh
i'm smiling now as i write this
silly
silly
silly

mine and marcus's new riot girl band is going to be called
'THE BLACKPOOL BOYS WITH TITS'
if it ever happens
hahaha
it would take the world by storm i tell you now
'watch this space ;)'

i have to be up early tomorrow
going to lytham for a wander and some brunch


this is going to be a short post
because to be frank
i'm knackered



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wow!

i'm getting one of these :D

life is

a maze
and love is a riddle

the weather is so nice today apart from the wind that has been around for the whole holidays so far
i hate tidying with a passion!
my room is a tip and i have to do some sewing because i've torn loads of clothes within a few months
tut tut tut

i tried a hazlenut yoghurt today which was lurking in the fridge and it was so nice
more hazlenut yoghurts to go on the shopping list, please

for the past couple of times i've rung my mum she's asked who it is :(
so i asked why she needed reminding who her daughter was
she says my voice has changed to more grown up
i don't think it has!

i hope that text was a hint just then :D

my hair's been feeling so dry recently
so this morning i washed it with repairing shampoo and conditioner and it's worked quite a bit
it's not like i straighten it/curl everyday though, maybe once or twice a week!

..it was a hint yay!

i'm not sure whether to go redder or brunetter or to just keep it the same and have a rest
i like both and i miss both and i'm not going half and half
it's one or the other isn't it
ho hum

right i really need to do this room



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oh no

i can't!
oh no oh no oh no

my moccasins have given me sore feet
OR
it might be because i waited an hour for a bus that never came so ended up walking with no coat on for over half an hour
then the bus had the cheek to go past just as i got to my door
ironic
.. line 15 you are not in my favour

my mood is very very low
not suicidal or anything but an 'i wish i could hibernate for 4 months' mood
i feel sick from the waltzers and those grimey chips as well
and yet again i look like a rape victim
not so good

on a brighter note i found the most amazing anime book
the main character's called nina and she's ginger with the same hair as me too!
i've ordered it because i don't think i'll be able to find a book quite so coincidental again :)

i have nothing to do tomorrow i don't think
i want to do something but then again i don't want to leave the house
have to go through town to get anywhere and i've got really bored of it now
blackpool is not in my favour also

since buying angus, thongs and full frontal snogging on dvd (don't judge me for this haha) i've become obsessed with the band the stiff dylans
downloaded all their songs i can find because.. i think they're that awesome

i think i've sussed getting the recordings onto my computer with a little (a lot) of help
oh.. why yes i have
worked finally!
wait..no
'unknown error has occured'
technology
what a mind fuck

kimya dawson always lightens my mood
i really want to go see her live
i think it'd be really good and laid back and everybody would talk and drink cups of tea
only dreams

i thought of some really good lyrics the other morning and the wanker i am didn't write them down so i've forgotten them
sacre bleu

i stil have a bruise from this jab i had about this time last week
wore a dress today so had to put concealer over the yellow monster
can still see it

hello this is my twin

i'm going to get a good book and a good cup of cadbury's finest




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tonight

has confirmed my thoughts
yes!
finally and in good time too
birthday = new way of thinking and freedom
:D

did the recording session with harry last night
went pretty well
was a bit rushed though because the machiney thing kept making a weird noise so spent about half an hour/45 mins trying to fix that in the 2 hour space we had
going to get them up on the myspace tomorrow
www.myspace.com/thebonnyaffect
don't be too critical, first ever time
= nerves!

emz is here curled up in a duvet
went to town today and bought a nice umbrella and some moccasins
eating into my camera fund but nevermind!
now or never

it amazes me how 2 faced people are
not aiming this at someone who's been like this to me but to what i hear other people do!
dear oh dear..

i have growing pains!
i always celebrate them because i really want to g r o w
last time i checked i was 5ft3 and 3 quarters
when i check next time when i'm back for easter term i hope i'm at least 5ft4 and a 1/2
:)
not being too specific or anything

hello abbz by the way if you're reading this
(frequently telling me about the blog i wrote)
i love you!

boy.. you're starting to grow on me!

since going into waterstones the other day i decided that i want to have a mini library in my room when it's all done
bed arrives on wednesday so i can get up there soon
it's an attic conversion thing so i literally mean up :)
it's nice and spacey

i found some darling ray bans on ebay yesterday
they're khaki apparently with like the top bit in cream
bit pricey though!
might get them after the camera so i can get that out the way

<3

anyway i'm going to get a drinkypooooo



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morning

world!
beautiful morning :)



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yay!

found a dress like the ted baker one but not as much $$$$$$$
went shopping today with abbz
lifts + plants are fun
the guy in that shop was the phwoarest thing i've ever seen (!!!)
need to go in there more now

i just missed who was on ch4 music and he was really good
grrr

recording next week!

i found mini chuppa chupps today
they're so sweet!
i think they're fake though
from home bargains, foreign packaging and don't taste the same haha

got my grades back today as we've broken up now
pretty pleased
need to get rid of those couple of c's though :(

dead good mood but tired and have a head ache coming on
gonna make a cuppa tea and go to zzzz before i get cranky

ps. guess who's going to go see paolo nutini?

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jab

hurts
ow ow ow

oh my gosh
deal or no deal is well good tonight
she had the best start ever!
watching the repeat and i know she takes the 50,000££ instead of gambling for 250,000 because xander already spoilt it >:l
i'm really happy for her though!

carpet's being put down soon
got back home and the cat has eaten the underlay
hahahaha

miow!

kfc is so filling but yummy

my grandad is french but he's fluent in english but he still has the french accent
anyway he was trying to say 'tourag' (a type of car) and it was hilarious
i couldn't say it like he did if i tried
had to be there moment
he said i look like one of those chinese dolls
momiji's?
..nice

i have this festival concert thing to do tomorrow evening
i don't know what to wear though
i've been told it has to be 'appropriate'
the music teacher that's organising it said
'no jeans, no trainers, no short skirts allowed.'
think i'll be okay
i'm scared i'll mess up

got our new car tonight!
maximus
i can stretch my legs out now
that makes me sound like i have long legs
(i really don't)
but before we had an audi tt which you had to bend your legs like in most cars
just saying
it's april fools day today
so when we were bringing the kfc back said that i'd spilt gravy down the side of the seat
mum went sick before i could say april fools
.......

12 days till mon anniversaire!
i'm going to run a bath



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