fake blood stains skin

:D!
tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow
i can't wait!

short post
because my neck hurts from sitting up too long and i need a brew and i have to tidy up a bit and i'd like to play with coco for a bit
i haven't given him much attention tonight
miow
bloc party and him tomorrow
ah i'll try and sleep
but i reckon it's going to be a big fat fail!

niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight <3

i'm

watching juno, dressing gown, cookie dough ice cream <3

sorry all that i haven't updated as daily, weekly, monthly as usual
year 11 is so tiring i just haven't had it in me to do much!
so much work during the day that tires you out and then so much homework
i've been up till about 1 a.m every morning
you get the picture!
i'm a living zombie!
but it's friday = weekend = relax

brb putting the icecream back in the freezer before it melts everywhere and my mum will be like jkehfeiufheqjsj

i have had such a good idea for a new blog but keeping it under wraps whilst i develop it

my mum and i went on the monthly shop today and she bought some gladioli (really quite a nice looking flower)
i was reading the tag on it when i noticed it said 'could be dangerous to cats'
do cats even eat flowers?
it made me laugh anyway
psycho cat meet your contender!

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first blonde. first love.

i can't wait!

and when he asked me 'do you still love me?' i had to look away, i didn't want to tell him that my heart grows colder with each day

some

people can be so possessive and selfish and only have one point of view.. theirs
but i've realised i don't care anymore!
i'm coming back!

music can put you in the best mood ever
well close to it, sat here smiling

it's so strange
we click so so well
i'm so glad we're speaking
i miss you almost unbearably
only that person will know i'm on about them
if you think i might be talking about you, you're wrong
you'll know for certain if you're that person

i'm on the road to recovery in terms of health
last night i was having a meal with my mum and her friend ray
i went on a walk for half an hour part way through because of stomach pains
stomach pains so bad i couldn't eat desert
and that's...pretty terrible!
even if you'e full to the brim after having a sunday roast or xmas dinner you always(!) have room for desert
even if it means un-doing a few buttons
but yes i'm good now
burning some lavender incense sticks
on my last one
must get some more

i just remembered from yesterday complaining about a slug
i hate slugs!
we were in carnforth at ingleton falls you see
and at this time of the year there are lots of slugs
it was so pretty.. slugs or not
it's one of my favourite places :)
my mum said the predictable, 'what has it done to you? it won't hurt you'
i said it hurt me visually
i got one of those motherly tuts
how i love those tuts
tut tut tut

there were 2 men stood by the bus stop i was at today and they looked a bit rough, swearing like sailors, from newcastle i picked up on
i thought they were waiting for a taxi and had been stood there a long time
i offered to order them a whiteside taxi
he was like 'nahhhhhhhh love s'alrite we're waitin for a jail taxi if yano what i mean'
well i'm mingling with the criminals now
but hahahahahaha whiteside taxis
oh noes
i got chatting with them and they were actually real nice!
apparently they're out of jail in 3 weeks and can go home
i didn't dare ask what they were doing time for
maybe they have a tough exterior but are really soft on the inside
like a kinder bueno

everyone should have a listen to matt nathanson
just discovered him now
nice!




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so sorry i haven't updated my blog in over a week!
i've not been in the mood at all to write anything about what's been going on in my world

i really didn't want to write about this first but it's the main thing that's happened
fallen out with my dad for definately not the first but maybe the last time
seriously though i have had enough
i'm getting angry typing right now thinking about him!
my mum says it's just how he is and that he'll never change and i'm sick of tiptoe-ing around him
well maybe that's not the word i should use
i'm not sneaking around but when i'm with him i can't be myself
and after 15 years of existance and being around him i shouldn't have to do that
i do love him but sometimes i just think i'm only sticking around so he can pay for my school fees
i really shouldn't have to think about this
i wish i had a nuclear family sometimes
it would be so so so much easier
i wouldn't have to pack up my life and switch houses every couple of days
i wouldn't have to solve arguments all the time between them
oh the list could go on and on!

update on the boys front - non existant

however i'm nice and full from my banana on toast and cup of tea
i'm feeling a bit swiney today
full of a cold, keep sneezing and my throat's all clogging
great stuff!

about half an hour i heard a massive crash downstairs
and i was like oh god oh god who's breaking in!/what's happening!/what's the cat done!
all the thoughts that went through my head
i even had a horrible image of my dad coming in and killing me
(tehehehehe)
looking through all the rooms in the house and finally found the culprit of the noise
an old picture had fallen off the wall and smashed
it wasn't even the nail falling out the wall or anything just the string on the back which held it up had snapped
i have a feeling i'm going to be blamed for it even though i was two flights up but nevermind
only god can judge me . . hahaha

i had my hair dyed yesterday this lighter colour
i was sat in the hairdressers and they told me the dye had to be left on for an hour and i just giggled and said 'no, really?'
..they weren't joking
just had to sit reading about things i didn't remotely care about
ie. katie price
fuck off fuck off fuck off
but i'm pretty pleased with it!
when i was walking through town later these 2 chav boys were behind me
one said GINGER and then the other hit him and said he liked the colour
i just walked off laughing :)
it was full of punks because it's the rebellion festival
some looked really good but some looked really naff
really really naff
but ja! i wanna go next year i think
i had no idea it was on this year until i got into town with a floral dress on
... i fitted in loads

anyway i'm going to go do stuff



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