so sorry i haven't updated my blog in over a week!
i've not been in the mood at all to write anything about what's been going on in my world

i really didn't want to write about this first but it's the main thing that's happened
fallen out with my dad for definately not the first but maybe the last time
seriously though i have had enough
i'm getting angry typing right now thinking about him!
my mum says it's just how he is and that he'll never change and i'm sick of tiptoe-ing around him
well maybe that's not the word i should use
i'm not sneaking around but when i'm with him i can't be myself
and after 15 years of existance and being around him i shouldn't have to do that
i do love him but sometimes i just think i'm only sticking around so he can pay for my school fees
i really shouldn't have to think about this
i wish i had a nuclear family sometimes
it would be so so so much easier
i wouldn't have to pack up my life and switch houses every couple of days
i wouldn't have to solve arguments all the time between them
oh the list could go on and on!

update on the boys front - non existant

however i'm nice and full from my banana on toast and cup of tea
i'm feeling a bit swiney today
full of a cold, keep sneezing and my throat's all clogging
great stuff!

about half an hour i heard a massive crash downstairs
and i was like oh god oh god who's breaking in!/what's happening!/what's the cat done!
all the thoughts that went through my head
i even had a horrible image of my dad coming in and killing me
(tehehehehe)
looking through all the rooms in the house and finally found the culprit of the noise
an old picture had fallen off the wall and smashed
it wasn't even the nail falling out the wall or anything just the string on the back which held it up had snapped
i have a feeling i'm going to be blamed for it even though i was two flights up but nevermind
only god can judge me . . hahaha

i had my hair dyed yesterday this lighter colour
i was sat in the hairdressers and they told me the dye had to be left on for an hour and i just giggled and said 'no, really?'
..they weren't joking
just had to sit reading about things i didn't remotely care about
ie. katie price
fuck off fuck off fuck off
but i'm pretty pleased with it!
when i was walking through town later these 2 chav boys were behind me
one said GINGER and then the other hit him and said he liked the colour
i just walked off laughing :)
it was full of punks because it's the rebellion festival
some looked really good but some looked really naff
really really naff
but ja! i wanna go next year i think
i had no idea it was on this year until i got into town with a floral dress on
... i fitted in loads

anyway i'm going to go do stuff



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